Who is this crazy bitch?

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Pennsylvania, United States
My name is Laura. I'm 26-years-old. I love cats and books and Asian ball-jointed dolls. I'm a nerd and I'm happily married to an equally nerdy husband. I'm 5'5" and weigh about 235/40. I have brown hair, bullshit brown eyes, and freckles. I also got a big ass, thick thighs, tubby fingers and toes, flabby arms, a round belly full of good food, and chipmunk cheeks that haven't gone away since I was 5. I will be buried with them, I am sure.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

C'mon, Tubby, here we go!

I am a woman.
I am healthy.
I am (kinda) strong.
I am a collector.
I am in love.
I am loved.
I am sexy.
I am happy.
I am an artist.
I am beautiful.

I am fat. Chunky. Big-boned. Heavyset. Plump. Fleshy. "Obese".

I say "obese" with quotes because I do not truly believe in that word. It's nothing more than a scare-tatic used by the diet industry to get fat women/men to give them money so that these people are socially acceptable.

Because you can only be happy/sexy/loved/beautiful/whatever if you are thin. You can't go out on fun dates unless you're a size 10 or below. You will be stared at when you eat in the public if you have a double chin. You won't find a husband/wife with those thick legs. You aren't healthy because you don't look healthy.

I feel that society as a whole has used "obese" to train its women and men into thinking that they can only exist as thin people. We allow the diet industry to tell us that we're obese. Only with their diet plan, their exercise videos, and their special food (and your money), you'll be accepted into society as a normal person, to be loved and to have a life again!

Guess what society?

I don't give a damn about you anymore.

I'm finally happy with who I am. It's been a helluva roller coaster and I'm no where near the end, but at least I'm on track.

I want to prove something not only to myself, but perhaps to others. To send a message saying "Listen up! I will NOT put up with your bullying anymore!"

I want to prove that you can be fat and fit. I want to take back the hate in the word fat and make it a lovable word once more. I want to show that you can be successful and happy, loved and sexy, confident and beautiful and be a size 18.

My name is Laura. In August, I'll be married and will turn 25. I am 5'5" and weigh around 235/40 lbs.

From this point forward, I'm going to eat more fruits and less bread. I am going to try to walk at least ten or more minutes per day.

I'm not too sure what'll happen. Will I tear down all of the emotional support I have finally built up within myself? Will I prove that I can be healthy and fat? Will I loose weight and (hopefully not) be under 200 lbs?

I guess there's only one way to find out...

Alrighty Tubby Woman! We've set our goals, now let's go! <3

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